a derranged mind of myself

What is the most painful thing that in relationship that most human can’t faced? is it sadness? betrayal? loneliness? or for all the loathe that can occurs between two human that were in relationship?
as for myself, the hardest thing that a human being can faced is the memories. in memories we promise everything and in memories we breaks everything. in memories we build all the hopes and dreams and in memories we perish all what we ever said. in memories we were pretenders, pretending for something and nothing. in memories we hurts all humane being and most of all we end up just hurting ourself.
sumtimes i do wish i have no memories. no memories equals to no heart feelings, no heart feelings equals to all well being and well being equals to the most welcome euphoria.
as for the memories, i maybe or maybe not, still, and as for memories i still could, and who knows couldn’t.
sorry to all the memories that i’ve hurts. maybe the day will come when i can overcome the memories not for me, but for all that i wanted to be..